Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Love Learning


 "Don't attempt to master a painting. 
Love the attempt."

I stole--er, borrowed this quote from Carol Marine's blog today.  I like it.

I'm in the throes of trying some new things in gouache on my tiny little pieces of paper, and having a ball despite my failed attempts.

I often fall to the feeling that I must MASTER this painting right now. I can see it, I know what I want to have happen, so it must now work.

But it doesn't--not when I force it.

It only starts to come together when my attitude becomes one of a child on an adventure, exploring possibilities, learning from my mistakes, and growing slowly in my understanding.

And of course, that often describes my walk with Christ.

I've tried to buckle down and behave myself, and good behavior is important, but my attempt isn't what makes it work. It's when I surrender control to Him--again and again and again and again--and ask to be shown the way and given what's needed that I progress. When I walk like a child, learning, trusting God, growing slowly, I progress.

So my prayer has become one of surrender:
Lord, I intend to obey
and submit 
and let go of anger 
and not be conformed to this world. 
Please firm me in this intention 
and strengthen me in Your power to enact it.